La Luna Bella (and other mystical things)

There's a full moon tonight.

Well, officially, the calendar says it's tomorrow night, but I just came from the store and I couldn't help but stand in my driveway, looking up at the moon, bags forgotten in my hands.

Why is it that the moon holds so much magic for us small humans here on earth? That bright white circle in the sky is just a big chunk of rock, reflecting the light of the sun.

But cultures have been mystified by it for centuries. They've prayed to it, worshipped it, planted their crops by it, knew the time of night depending on its position in the sky. The oceans ebb and flow to its cycle. It's a prominent figure in tales of romance.

There was a time when I didn't believe in anything mystical. Considering the fact that I'm Christian adds irony to that remark, as faith in the unknown is the fiber of our religion. Yet, I never believed in spirits or unexplained phenomena or anything like that. I considered myself a realist. And I never bought into any superstitions. I felt they were just stories created to place fear and doubt into the minds of the weak.

I've discovered, however, as I've grown older, that I am not completely the realist I thought I was. Events over the years led me to believe in the possibility of the existence of things that cannot be explained. Part of me still wrestles with it, and tells me to cut the shit and screw my head back on straight.

But another part of me...a part that wants to believe in the mystical and magical things...has been floating on the edges of my conciousness more than it once did. I see it more now. Call it what you like...intuition, Celtic superstition, silliness...but it's there. It tells me to believe; to stop being so closed-minded and accept the things I can't explain.

I've written here in the past that I get feelings about things sometimes. I always have, even since I was a child. I have that feeling tonight. It's a nervous sort of excitement. Giddiness. My hands are trembling (although they do that sometimes when I'm stressed) and I feel like something is coming. Something is going to happen soon.

I can't get a read on if that something is positive or negative, and that's the frustrating part. I think it's something positive, but I've been wrong before. We'll have to wait and see.

In the meantime, I'm looking at that moon. I can hardly pull my eyes away to focus on this post. I feel very drawn to it when its full like that. Is that a female-thing, or just me? LOL Does everyone feel that same draw?

Either way, I'll continue to stare at it with wide eyes, and expect the unexpected.