Signs

I always wonder about signs. Not the kind that tell you to stop or yield or go slow (not technically, anyway) but the kind that tell you "Pay attention to this...this means something."

I believe in them, of course, to a degree. And I tend not to ignore them. I never considered myself the superstitious sort, but my Celtic blood is full of intuition and refuses to be ignored.

Today was a cold, cloudy winday day where I live, and just as I was about to look at the clock for the umteenth time, the sun came through the window behind me.

I have a dozen or so photos on my wall here in my little cubicle, and the sun is shining directly on four of them: My older brother and me as children in Ireland (him on a donkey and me standing next to the donkey), a wedding photo with my husband and me smiling into the camera, toasting our nuptials with champagne; a black and white of my husband and my youngest daughter at my brother-in-law's wedding; and a photo of my oldest daughter, taken a few years ago. She's so beautiful with her hair red in the setting sunlight, and her freckles standing out against her fair skin. I have a beautiful family.

Now I also have many other photos around these, not touched by the light from the window at all, regardless of their clsoe proximity to the other four. To the untrained observer, this would mean nothing. To me, it means something along the lines of staying close to my family, appreciating them more, loving them more.

The sun has moved since I've been writing this. Only the fourth photo has its light on it now. My oldest daughter. My teenager. God help me. LOL

Ringing in a new one

How many times can I say I can't believe it's 2008 already without making someone sick?? LOL

I feel good about this year ahead. I feel like good things are in store. Don't know what, but I'm looking forward to the adventure in finding out. We shall see.

Things have been good lately. Ups and downs, of course, but mostly ups. Things at home are good. Work has been going along smoothly, although changes in leadership are happening once more as we speak. We'll see how that goes. Always keeping an eye on the horizon anyway.

I wish I had more time to write, of course. Yes, I know. I could be working on the book right now instead of doing this. LOL Well. I'm waiting for my husband to come home and waiting for the dryer to buzz, ad waiting for my youngest daughter to actually pay attention to what I'm telling her. Waiting, waiting, waiting. I'm chock full of excuses, aren't I? LOL

Ah well. I've decided this year to allow myself to let go. I'm going to ease back off the clutch just enough to see what's happening around me, and to smell the flowers and to let things happen.

I feel aware tonight.